It is one of the most severe episodes of grief

It is one of the most severe episodes of grief, to be completely fast.  I do not mean to cut yourself off from people, or avoid talking to anyone; there is another silence, that makes you talk to everyone about the details of their normal lives, you listen with interest in their pains and troubles in life, offer advice and guide them on the path you see healthy, underestimate their tragedy, and relieve them  Their weights, but you are silent in front of yourself, you cannot talk to them, you are afraid to face them, you fear the calm that allows you to evacuate them, and think about the matter of your life that is gradually collapsing.  All the pain inside you is increasing, and your desire to live slowly, and the passion has completely disappeared from your life, but you continue your daily tasks, because you know that life is not waiting for you.  You are forced to silence your belief that what is inside you will not be understood, will not be appreciated, no one will understand it, no point in speaking, no point in discussions, no point in even crying.  Your belief that you will hear only the echo of your scream makes you conceal all the voices and groans of sadness in your chest.  It is one of the most severe episodes of sadness, being in a long feud with yourself, as if you were alien to her, so strange about yourself because it was you who did this on your own.